Feeling So Alone, But Working Through It

While studying this past week during I found that I was spending a lot of time in the eighth chapter of Mormon. Its when Moroni is entrusted with the plates because the rest of the Nephite nation has been destroyed and Moroni finds himself alone. With no where to go and no one to turn to. The sense of loneliness that Moroni must have been facing really made me sit back and think. Elder Holland’s talk about the saviors last moments alone kept entering into my mind. The Savior was truly alone during the most difficult moments of his life, with no where to go, and with no one to turn too. The sense of loneliness is something that can bring us down or if we over come can make us stronger. It made me remember my first night in Peru in the CCM. Arriving late at night, not understanding the instructions that were being said to me, and having to be assigned to a room where I found myself alone. For the first time in my life, I honestly felt alone. Humming to myself ¨Conmigo quedate Senor¨ I remember a strong sense of comfort that filled that empty room.

We have an investigator that shared with us this past week the same concern that Moroni and our Savior found themselves. He feels alone, as if there is nothing in this world worth achieving. His name is Fernando Rojas and we found him about three weeks ago. He lives alone and has had a long history of relationship problems. The only comfort that he has found is the comfort that comes from drugs and drinking. Our first few lessons with him went extremely well but we ran into a bump when he opted to live with a friend who lives out of our area. We passed the reference to the other Elders but they couldn´t ever find him. Elder Cruz and I both felt as if there was something more we could have done so we decided to pray especially for Fernando. We hadn´t heard anything from him all of last week until last night when we ran into him while we were returning to our apartment. He told us that he had just left the hospital because of an overdose that he had done. There in the street he expressed his sincere desire to change and put his life in order. Our prayer was answered and I pray that Fernando too might have his prayers answered.